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Love has No Rules-A Personal Reflection on Death

“When face to face with life and death, the heart will ignore all history—it’s own and the world’s—in order to make friends with being alive. I discovered this in my sixty-second year when sitting next to my mother in the emergency room, waiting for my father to arrive. She and I had not seen each other in seventeen years, deep scars between us. But when her lip began to quiver, my heart ignored our history and I rocked her gently. My heart, which had carried all our grievances like heavy beads, didn’t resolve our history or keep it alive. It had been waiting for this moment, which I could never have foreseen, and simply put everything between us aside.” Mark Nepo, The Endless Practice, p. 167

I noticed this in my 57th year, 2016, with first the death of my brother in law, a cherished female client and friend, and then the untimely death of my 30 yr old nephew. My nephew and I shared the same birth date of March 17. That date has taken on a new dimension of meaning. I have observed and felt relationships change, as a minister and in my personal life.

Life is too precious to waste and becomes even more precious for me with every death. The death of my sweet dog, Sophie in April of 2015, still feels fresh. I had 13 years with her. I had hoped that she would accompany me in the next pivotal period of my life. The death of my father in September of 2014. I spent many afternoons with him at the nursing home while he slept and I studied as I was training in clinical pastoral education to become a hospital chaplain. I miss him and my mother misses him every day.

Like death, love has no rules either. Neither of them have any boundaries. Many individuals are unaware that they make the rules and call the shots creating the conditions in their life.  Through my studies in becoming a Unity minister, I learned that we always have a choice even when it doesn’t appear that way.  We can choose what we give the power to, a person or situation, money, love , and the loss of a loved one, etc.

The first death that had a deep affect was that of a mentoring minister, Rev Ken. I learned that he had died the day before I was giving a Sunday lesson. The lesson itself was a difficult one to give and I felt his presence with me as I spoke. I was so glad I had been able to spend quality time with him and his family a few years before.  My dog, Sophie, a chocolate lab mix with bull terrier, was invited over to his house with me on New Year’s eve. We were in Florida where I was renovating a house for a past board member and Rev Ken had taken a church in the area. We also got invited to watch the super bowl.

Sophie and I got closer than ever since it was just the two of us. I drove down with her from Maine and the drive back home was a fun adventure as well. She was my second dog and I loved her so much that it was hard to let her go. We had another dog, Abbie, that was also a lab mix so our home wasn’t without a dog. And yet, still very empty without Sophie by my side. Be sure and take time to grieve because that is an important part of letting go.

Love has no rules or boundaries on how deeply one loves. We always have a choice in how much power we give to it.  Lord, Alfred Tennyson wrote the line, “‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”

And when apropriate, in my work as a chaplain with a family at the death bed of their loved one,  I will say, “It hurts so deeply because we love so deeply.” There is a true resonance in that moment.  

Love is the foundation and where it all begins!

Rev Airin





Prayer of the Heart Part III

Last week I mentioned the Prayer of the Heart booklet that Rev Toni Boehme wrote. It is no longer being printed. Her website is here to check out and see her other books: Toniboehme.com and you can put Toni Boehme books in google search and they all appear on the page.

To conclude this series, I am sharing the poem by James Dillet Freeman, Unity minister and poetry Nobel laureate. It remains very powerful for me. I didn’t realize that this poem was taken to the moon by James Irwin on Apollo 15. It is stored there in a microfilm file for future space explorations.

I had the privilege of hearing James read it out loud at Unity Village in Missouri in 1994. After he read it, we had a break in the class and as I walked outside, I could hear it echoing as it continued to resonate in my heart. At that time, I had gone through some significant events in my life, wherein it provided a healing lifeline for me.

This might be considered his prayer of the heart because of the circumstances taking place in his life when it came through. For the whole story you can go here: https://www.unity.org/article/story-i-am-there-james-dillet-freeman   In 1947, he was at the bedside of his wife, Katherine, who had just had surgery for cancer. He prayed out loud asking God if he was there. He remembered hearing a voice speaking to him and naturally, looked around and there was no one else in the room with him. The words he heard were: “Do you need me? I am there.”


Do you need Me?
I am there.

You cannot see Me, yet I am the light you see by.
You cannot hear Me, yet I speak through your voice.
You cannot feel Me, yet I am the power at work in your hands.

I am at work, though you do not understand My ways.
I am at work, though you do not understand My works.
I am not strange visions. I am not mysteries.

Only in absolute stillness, beyond self, can you know Me
as I AM, and then but as a feeling and a faith.

Yet I am here. Yet I hear. Yet I answer.
When you need ME, I am there.
Even if you deny Me, I am there.
Even when you feel most alone, I am there.
Even in your fears, I am there.
Even in your pain, I am there.

I am there when you pray and when you do not pray.
I am in you, and you are in Me.
Only in your mind can you feel separate from Me, for
only in your mind are the mists of “yours” and “mine”.
Yet only with your mind can you know Me and experience Me.

Empty your heart of empty fears.
When you get yourself out of the way, I am there.
You can of yourself do nothing, but I can do all.
And I AM in all.

Though you may not see the good, good is there, for
I am there. I am there because I have to be, because I AM.

Only in Me does the world have meaning; only out of Me does the world take form; only because of ME does the world go forward.
I am the law on which the movement of the stars and the growth of living cells are founded.

I am the love that is the law’s fulfilling. I am assurance.
I am peace. I am oneness. I am the law that you can live by.
I am the love that you can cling to. I am your assurance.
I am your peace. I am ONE with you. I am.

Though you fail to find ME, I do not fail you.
Though your faith in Me is unsure, My faith in you never
wavers, because I know you, because I love you.

Beloved, I AM there.

— James Dillet Freeman

Until we connect again on this blog,

Rev Airin

Prayer of the Heart

Part II

In part one last week I gave you one of the ways that Carol Knox connected with God. There are other ways, too, with the primary one being meditation. Spending time in the silence and listening for a message from God, Spirit, or your higher self. One of my mentors said to have a particular chair in the house, that is the only place you commune with your higher power. Whenever you sit in that chair, you and your body know, almost like muscle memory, that it is time to meditate. Some people don’t sit still well, so walking in nature as a meditation works for those individuals.

You might have a question that you need an answer to, so say it at the beginning of meditating after you have centered. If you don’t receive it at that time, know that it could happen anywhere, anytime. You will know that it is from God because it will resonate deep in your soul. It will also be the highest and best for all concerned. Often, I will receive 3-to-6-word answers, with clear and distinct words.

When I was just beginning to develop a relationship with God, I would sometimes use the needle drop method with the Bible. I would have a question and ask it. I would randomly open the Bible and put my finger on the page where it opened. Then I would read the verse that it landed on as well as the verses before and after it to give it context. Sometimes this was helpful. Since Unity teaches the metaphysical interpretation of the Bible, using this method makes it fun, too. Metaphysical interpretation is looking at the meaning beyond the words as opposed to reading the Bible literally.

There is another fun way to connect with God. A mentor taught me about saying “Good morning Holy Spirit” and good night daily. She told me that eventually it would answer back, and it did happen. It was a neat experience.

The ultimate goal is to pray without ceasing and these methods bring us back to the Prayer of the Heart that another mentor, Rev Toni Boehm, wrote as a published booklet. I am in the process of getting a link and will add it in Part III.

“The Prayer of the Heart is an ongoing prayer held in the heart, directing your life towards God. Are you ready for a shift in your life experience? Are you ready to move higher and deeper?”

This booklet contains a ‘How To’ process on creating a prayer of the heart that you repeat over and over. It is a short prayer or affirmation that will come to your lips when you need it the most. This continues to be a powerful experience in my life. The one I chose is “Christ Heals and Reveals, I am Silently Trusting.” It is an acronym for Christ that was written by an instructor from Unity.

Last night the prayer came right into my mind and was comforting when I was thinking about a situation in my life. If I am unsure of the outcome and need to trust it will come to me. Do any of you have a prayer or affirmation that you use that may bring you peace and comfort during turmoil? I also will use the Prayer for Protection, by Unity minister James Dillet Freeman. It doesn’t come to me as fast as the prayer of my heart does, however.

Stay tuned for Part III.

Rev Airin

Prayer of the Heart

by Rev Dr Carol Ruth Knox, Unity Minister

Part I

In order to get beyond the mind, one absolutely must move to the heart. You must move to your heart. I am going to ask you to do it right now. Keep your eyes open, keep reading, but at the same time, send your attention down into your heart. Notice that almost immediately you must become very quiet. As you are in your heart, say within, only two words: I AM. Notice that the mind still goes on, but a different energy begins to be created. Are you aware of that? Can you feel it? It is a different energy. This activity, the Prayer of the Heart, not only elevates consciousness, calms one’s being, but it is also a grounding device. Physiologically it is a centering device. It affects the body. Can you feel it? This is called the Prayer of the Heart. This is deeper than affirmation. If, when you are down inside yourself, you keep your thoughts contained and don’t allow yourself to run away into your mental spaces – don’t allow yourself to run away into your emotional spaces, although they are a whole lot more powerful – something wonderful begins to happen. The language, the new language, begins to move from being just a mind trip to becoming a heart trip. It becomes so much deeper than this I AM space, whatever it is and no one knows, it begins to talk to you, through you, as if you heard yourself on a channel for the Living Spirit within. Your thought now is no longer of the world – it has transformed into another level – the language of Spirit begins to move in you automatically. Your thought becomes the Christ Spirit speaking through you.

Every morning when I awake now, I go and sit somewhere. I go into this place within me, this I AM, this Kingdom of Heaven within – it has been in the process of being trained now for nearly four years, and I listen and I ask it to speak through me. It has a very pure statement. It says things like, “I am here with you always – trust me – I love you – I care for you – I am protecting you – I will lead you on (and incidentally, I am listening to it now) – I will guide you – I will tell you what to say next – I am the healer – that is all.” It takes tremendous trust to live from this place. A whole new energy is born, and it is not dynamic, exciting, emotional, exquisite, dancing energy. It does not especially care to talk to people. It does not really care about organizations anymore. It does not want to be hassled by the head. It only wants to pray with others through the heart. It would rather be with a flower than a textbook. It would rather be with an animal than a business letter. It would rather listen to the creative voice of Spirit than write it in a book. It would rather heal than chatter.

Courtesy of TruthUnity.net

This is one way to develop a relationship with God or Spirit or your higher Self. Stay tuned for part II next week.

Rev Airin

Conspiracy Theory or Truth?

Since I became a student of the Unity teachings 36 years ago, over half of my life, I have learned about the power that lies in the words that I use. As I may have mentioned before, I began to change my life one word at a time, one sentence at a time, to a new thought. This slowly transformed my life. We can only change ourselves, no one else. However, one can be an example inspiring another by living their truth that works for them.

The word Truth means a fact that has been proven with data. A theory is a group of ideas that logically explain an independent idea and isn’t proven. For example, the idea that Trump won the presidency couldn’t be proven. There was no empirical data to support it. This brings us to the word conspiracy. This means that a group of powerful people agree to work together in secret and create a plan or event that will cause an end to something. This will only benefit the conspirators and not us.

How I tell Truth over conspiracy theory is the way it feels in my gut and heart. Trust and honesty play a big role of course. If the Truth of someone else that is shared with me, causes me to feel fear (false evidence appearing real) then I need to stop giving those words power in my mind and life. In essence, a conspiracy theory does not have a happy outcome. So why would I want to buy the book about a shadowland and fill my head with ideas that lead to a crummy ending?

Truth tends to be for the highest and best for all concerned. It is above board and feels good. Sure, not all facts make one feel good, but they are proven reality and don’t feel icky. To be clear, I am not creating a duality of Truth vs Conspiracy Theory. They just happen to be opposites which is the definition of duality of course.

Moving to Metaphysics, Truth means The Absolute, or God, the information we receive directly from Source. It is unconditional and unlimited information with infinite access. It is pure and it has been proven when one acts upon what they receive and has results in real time that are for the highest and best for all concerned.

Why show the contrast between Truth and conspiracy? I felt it was important to discuss it because there is so much about conspiracy theories in the news. A while back in my life, I weighed the value of my time and decided that I would be more conscious of what I spent it on. There is so much out there that can consume my time and I can unconsciously fill it or waste it. I haven’t done it perfectly yet.

Leading with and from Love, responding with Love, and seeing it unfold in love. Instead of a crummy icky ending, life moves forward enfolded in Love and continues on a higher plane of existence.

What are your thoughts on this?

Rev Airin

Life After Life After….

I haven’t had a near death experience, have you? Joe Geraci has and I learned about it during his Ted Talk. One of the things he said was there were no words in our vocabulary that could describe it adequately. He did say he felt love and he was the love, the brightness, and the peace.  Below is a poem he wrote about it, over 30 years later. He wrote some others, too, about his view of life on earth.

Fleeting Voyage

From up here the stars pass like street lights

as I sit back and stare into ancient history

I’ve never been this far away from home

the thought comes just as easily as it goes

She takes my hand and my thoughts cascade into a blur

I can feel the hum of the universe

to a land of dreams

She says she’ll take me far away from everything

just as I wake

Copyright © Joe Geraci | Year Posted 2012

As a chaplain at the hospital, I will sometimes get asked about it. Honestly, none of us know what it is really like unless we have had a near death experience or we have been with someone or read or heard about what others have said. And then we need to consider that it is interpreted through their own filters. The one thing that I inherently believe is that it is peaceful.

Einstein is known to have said it was beautiful. Steve Jobs said, “Oh wow, oh wow, oh wow! His sister said that he was a romantic and had a capacity for wonderment. Italian artist, Raphael’s last word uttered was, “happy.” When John Wayne died, he turned toward his wife Marie and said, “Of course I know who you are. You are my girl, I love you.” Bo Diddley as he listened to a song called, “Walk around heaven,” he said. “Wow.”1

Some people say that the experience after death is what one believes it will be. I was told by an intuitive that he had a visit from a friend after she died. She said that the after life was everything that they had talked about.

Unity teachings are spiritual and metaphysical and say that the physical body dies but that isn’t the end of ourselves. Everything is energy, our soul lives on and we transition to another form for a bit. Death is a new beginning. Charles Fillmore, our cofounder, taught that we are reincarnated, when we come back in a physical body we have another chance to do things better.

I am planning on an “Oh wow” experience. How about you?

Rev Airin


What is life to you?

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“I slept and I dreamed that life is all joy. I woke and I saw that life is all service.        I served and I saw that service is joy.” — Kahlil Gibran

“Life is an echo. What you send out, comes back. What you sow, you reap. What you give, you get. What you see in others, exists in you. Remember, life is an echo.   It always gets back to you. So, give goodness.” —- Unknown

“Life is an adventure to be lived, not a problem to be solved” — Terry Brooks book

“Life is consciousness and relationship. The consciousness you                       show up in dictates how the relationship unfolds” — Airin’s credo

What is life to you? Have you thought about it as such? Maybe you have and there is a favorite quote or credo that inspires your life. Recently I was drawn to the first quote because I have experienced it. The happiness and joy quotes that I shared in one of my articles last month all apply, too. See: https://revairin.wordpress.com/2023/02/07/happiness-and-joy-quotes/

One of the quotes describes joy as a feeling which resonates for me. I’ve literally had a love or dislike relationship with joy. To use hate instead of dislike would be untrue and too strong of a descriptor. I have felt and experienced true hatred in my life toward and from another which was an incredibly horrible feeling on both sides that I never want to experience again. The ‘Life is an echo’ quote exemplifies that. We were both in love with the same woman and he was using emotional blackmail to get her to stay with him. This happened about 6 years before I discovered the teachings of Unity.

The good ending to the story was this woman saw through what he was doing and I had put everything on the line by giving her the straight scoop. This was one of the first times that I tried with every fiber of my being not to be attached to the outcome. In college at that time I was using the Terry Brooks quote above as a credo that I followed.

The quote came to me when I was talking with someone last week. When I look through the archives of my life, it has always been an adventure. I have taken risks and like my Aunt Nancy said once, “You have always landed on your feet, just like a cat.”

The main quote and some minor ones lasted me until finding Unity at age 27, as I have mentioned before and then I began reading Charles Fillmore, as his teachings had been organized into books. He cofounded Unity with his wife, Myrtle. When I graduated from Unity’s seminary, I used the ‘Life is consciousness…’ credo above that I developed from the teachings I had received. This continues to serve me like an umbrella over my life’s adventures.

Going back to where I began, the first quote ending with ‘service is joy’, relates to a promise that I made to myself after graduating from college and knowing that I would be working and earning my way in the world. No matter what my work was, I would make sure it was something I loved, and I have truly served in joy. (Little did I know that I had been feeling it all along, for a win, win!)

Conscious Awareness

How aware am I of how I show up in the world? I know that I am different now than when I was in my 20’s or even my 40’s. I remember when I turned 41. I had experienced significant financial losses from risks I had taken and still landed on my feet like a cat with nine lives. I had the safety net of the Unity teachings to support me and bail me out. I had learned early on at age 27 when I discovered Unity, that by changing my thoughts, one word at a time, one sentence at a time, that it changed my consciousness. This changed my life, one moment at a time.

From BlessingManifesting .com

When I look back, I like what each decade taught me. I liked my 40’s in particular because I had experienced enough of life that it gave me some wisdom to be more aware of how I showed up in the world and how to live while simultaneously I had so much more to experience and learn from the world. All of this contributed to my inner world, my spiritual journey with God as my copilot.

I have the opportunity when I am rounding at the hospital, to ask people how they are doing. I’ll ask, “how are you doing” or “how’s it going?” The replies are: “It’s going”, I’m good,” “living the dream,” or “I’m here.” It tells me a lot about their conscious awareness in that moment. How conscious is a person of how they are showing up in the moment? They may just be responding to be polite. If I ask it in a tone that uses inflection on certain words I might get more than “I’m good.” For example, “How are you doing?” This sometimes elicits more of a response because I am saying that I really want to know. Also emphasizing the word ‘doing.’ Not using any emphasis on words tends to give a pat answer or automatic response.

If it’s an employee I have cultivated a relationship with and they are having a rough day, they will say so. After they debrief, sometimes I will say, “Did you know that you can begin again in this moment and start your day over? Brush it off your shoulders and begin again in this moment.” It is a concept many haven’t heard of. I learned it from being involved at Unity.

How aware am I of how I show up in any given moment? I am not always conscious of how I am showing up. Since awareness is the other half of it. I have a credo I live by: Life is consciousness and relationship. The consciousness that I show up in dictates how the relationship unfolds. It serves me well and brings me back to my center of conscious awareness.

Thoughts to ponder for this week.

Rev Airin

A Gotchaback God

What could that mean? It doesn’t mean a person surprised you back or got you back in ‘a tit for tat’ way. As you know, I promote positive perspectives in this blog. It means God’s got our back. This means that God’s got you, understands you unconditionally, no matter what. God is on our side, in our corner, and always looking out for us. This is even when we are unaware.

The phrase came to me when I was visiting a patient on Saturday. She hadn’t had any sleep for a week, worried about her baby that she was carrying, yet receiving care in the hospital. It wasn’t the normal pregnancy that she had expected and it was her first. Part of the spiritual conversation was regarding God wanting us to be happy and always being there for us. She has a strong faith and is currently in her denomination’s ministerial school to become a minister.

People sometimes use the phrase, gotcha, when they understand us. I also said, had she heard the phrase ‘let go and let God.’ She said yes. Then I said, let’s reverse that, first give your situation to God who is greater than all our problems, then let go. God will take care of it. We have a gotcha God, 24/7. She said she loved that and wrote it in her blank lined book. When you have truly let go, you may find you can fall asleep. It is my hope that she slept better that night.

The God I know, who Jesus called Abba, also loves us unconditionally, never judging us. In Unity, members strive to love unconditionally as demonstrated by Jesus. To refresh your memory, as a Unity truth student I worship God. Jesus is my brother and way shower. I do my best to follow his example and teachings, loving unconditionally and being aware if I am judging another person.

In the above picture it shows another being that loves unconditionally as well as playful, a dog. For me, life wouldn’t be the same without my four-legged child and friend, Bailey. There is a quote that I acquired that hangs on the wall of my living room by Anonymous.

It came to me that every time

I lose a dog they take a piece

Of my heart with them.

And every new dog who comes into my life

Gifts me with a piece of their heart.

If I live long enough all the components of my heart

Will be dog, and I will become as

 Generous and loving as they are.

Dogs are also a good unconditional judge of character. They also remember a person the first time they meet them. Dog happens to be God spelled backwards. They are definitely a presence in physical form just as God is in my life although I can’t see a physical form. There is plenty of evidence in my life that God exists and that is a topic for another blog.

Try out letting God and then letting go. Give it over to God first and then let go of it into God’s care and keeping.

Remember, God’s A Gotchaback God!

Rev Airin

Poems from Eternal Thread

This week I am sharing with you two poems from my book. My kitchen is being renovated and that is where all my time is being spent. However, this is a great opportunity for me to promote my book, Eternal Thread, that I wrote and illustrated. Many of you read this blog from my facebooksite. https://www.airincwolfpoetry.com/

Across the Universe

In you I am home

My life your very breath

Blows petals of love

into barren places

In you I am home

My life your very instrument

Plays melodies of healing

As each soul’s revealing

In you I am home

My life your very grace

Harmonizes aching hearts

across the universe

Harmonizes aching hearts

across the universe

across the universe

across the universe

An Eternal Thread

Unvarnished moments

Remembered conversations

The shared love

An eternal thread

The walk through a time link

A message from

The One Mind

Mixes with the memories

Along the path chosen